Much of my research and activism thus far has centered on rape culture*, sexual violence, and spiritual wounding. This being said, I have given little consideration, and have shared even less, of my own experience of sexual harassment perpetrated by a professor at the end of my undergraduate career. Although I had called myself an advocate for women who had been victimized by various forms of violence, sexual included, I was unable to advocate for myself when confronted with my experience. What’s more, although I have called for a speaking out of one’s experience of sexual violence in order to challenge the rape culture and begin the healing process, I have not been able to do this myself.
My professor sexually harassed me during my final semester of college in the very last course I needed to graduate. The first time he approached me he asked me to stay after class. Initially I was nervous thinking I had done something wrong; however I was surprised when he began to ask me personal questions. I was engaged at the time and Dr. X commented how lucky my now husband was. He then reached out, hugged me, and stroked my hair. I didn’t move, I was scared and wondered what was happening. After a few moments, I forced myself out of his arms and with my head down, unable to look him in the eye, I said I had to leave and darted out the door. My initial reaction was to downplay his inappropriate behavior and I convinced myself that I must have misinterpreted the situation. Continue reading “Confronting Sexual Harassment Ten Years Later: Speaking Out, Empowerment, and Refusing to Accept Defeat By Gina Messina-Dysert”

