Stick It to the Man and Black OUT Friday by Caryn MacGrandle

Before I go any farther, I want to clarify that I am not speaking of all men.  There are a lot of good, strong, protector-type, kind, compassionate men out there.

But I am speaking of THE MAN – an archetypal dominator who has held the purse strings and the control the past few thousand years.

THE MAN who puts the almighty dollar above all else and doesn’t care who he has to step on in order to do so.

I’m sure  you can think about quite a few.  I would also include some women who behave like THE [DOMINATOR]  MAN.  The prevalence of this thinking has led to the spot we currently find ourselves in.

Black Friday is one of the most crucial sales periods for many retailers, with some earning a significant portion of their annual revenue during the holiday season.  Black Friday and Cyber Monday 2024 alone generated billions of dollars in online sales.

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Opening All the Windows and Returning the Goddess to Her Rightful Place by Caryn MacGrandle

The quote that describes Jesus as the “front door of God” is found in the Bible, John 10:7, where Jesus says, “I am the door of the sheep”; essentially meaning that the only way to access God is through Jesus, as he is the entrance point to God’s presence.

I have been calling on Hathor, and last night, She came.

Ah, let me back up a few steps.

I have up to now not given much thought to Egyptian Goddesses instead preferring my Celtic and Greek ones. But a few days ago, I attended this lovely workshop by Tahya who has developed a modern day systrum, the percussion instrument used by Priestesses in honor of Hathor.  And as so often happens on my path, when you crack the window, She comes. 

The last two days I have been listening to Hathor meditations, the Mother of all creation, the Goddess of Love, an Egyptian Goddess whose worship may have begun in the Predynastic Era over 5,000 years ago.

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I Really Like My Dirty Feet by Caryn MacGrandle

Last night, I had a dream where a nicely dressed woman leaned towards me and said, ‘Come with me, I’ll show you how to do it.’   

“I’ll show you how to get those feet clean,” and she looked down at my dirty feet in disgust. 

And I knew what ‘it’ she was referring to.  She had a nice car and a big beautiful home and a well coiffed outfit.   She was one of my children’s friend’s parents, successful the way that mainstream society defines it.  

And my small self said, ‘sure, okay’.   

But then my Large self said ‘wait a minute.  Stop.  I like my dirty feet.’ 

They’re part of me, you see.  

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Fight, Fight, Fight? by Caryn MacGrandle

I have two divorces under my belt. I’m not proud. I made bad choices. I didn’t have the support network nor the mental ability to thrive in the situations. But I had gumption. And I didn’t stay.


So here I am. 54. And starting over. 


It can be rather terrifying as motherhood and family has always been my focus.


After my recent second divorce, part of my stability plan was Land. The Blue Ridge mountains in North Carolina called me. The Appalachians. I spent a year looking. I had a list: unrestricted land, at least five acres, a water feature. 
I had several adventures on my own looking, but I will never forget the day I found it. I was with my son James, and I knew it right away.


Ten acres. A third of it a bog along a creek. Away from it all, but not ‘too away’ as it has a road running through it that leads to a partly developed mountain subdivision. 


Home. 


I can breathe.

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Healing What Ails Us and Coming Together: Politics and Other Forbidden Subjects by Caryn MacGrandle

I met my best friend growing up in Third Grade.  I moved around the country after high school, but regardless, her and I have managed to stay in touch.  I spoke with her last weekend and asked about her parents.  Even though its been years since I’ve seen them, I remember them as if it were yesterday. Going out to their cabin at Lake Texoma. Seeing them around the house. 

You see Kim and I were tight.  We saw each other pretty much daily for years.  In some ways it was a much more innocent time.  I remember summers leaving the house in the morning and not going back until sunset, muddy and barefoot.  Crawdads and horse models.  Playgrounds and baseball games.  

But in some ways, it was a much less innocent time. We dabbled in quite a lot that we should not have as the term helicopter parent was unheard of.  Our skies were wide open.  The good and the bad. The large majority of us were latch key kids, and we raised ourselves.  No apps to tell our parents where we were or check in. We went as the wind blew us.

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Ritual Theatre for What Ails You by Caryn MacGrandle

Tanishka the Moon Woman at the Edinburgh Fringe Festival in August in Scotland

The power of the Eleusinian Mysteries: “so powerful that ‘people in Greco-Roman civilization came to Eleusis to be initiated every fall for almost 1300 years.”  The greatest “mystery” about the Mysteries is that they were secret; only the initiates knew what had happened there.”*

Yesterday, I spoke with Tanishka Moon Woman.  I have known Tanishka’s work since I began the divine feminine app a decade ago.  It was wildly popular.  I believe she had about 400,000 in her facebook group.  Tanishka has 27 years of writing books, hosting and teaching Red Tents amongst other online and in person offerings.  She travels extensively between Australia, Bali and the UK. 

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The Courage to Go Your Own Way by Caryn MacGrandle

My eleven-year-old daughter is regularly called a lesbian in the conservative Southern town that we live.  Not because she has identified her gender, but because she does not dress the same as all of the other girls or wear any makeup.  She wears linen baggy pants with casual t-shirts.  And it is not as if the other girls are dressed more formally than her, but there is a ‘prescribed’ casual look that involves Lululemon and expensive sports casual clothing bought at stores like Dick’s Sporting Goods.

My daughter doodles a skeleton on her hand, and the girl next to her calls her ‘emo’ akin to pariah in the culture.  The boy on the other side says, ‘why don’t you just go kiss a girl already.  Faggot.’      

My heart breaks when I hear her tell me these things.

‘Keep carving your own way.  Fly,’ I silently entreat her.

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The Painful Problem and How the Divine Feminine is the Answer by Caryn MacGrandle

Two young kids and an Airline Pilot husband who got caught in the 911 lay-offs, a first divorce, struggling, a second marriage and struggling again.  Moving around the country with no ties and not knowing many people. I remember after my first marriage having to move to a less expensive neighborhood, I had the thought “Match.com? I don’t need a Match.com, I need a Friend.com!”

Only “Friend.Com” doesn’t work.  It is awkward to go out to lunch “Do you want to be my friend?”

And so I remained isolated and struggling alone.

I drank daily in order to quell my anxiety and fall asleep.

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Reaching a Time Space Reality by Caryn MacGrandle

Daily meditation has changed my life allowing me to stop taking anti-anxiety medication and giving me the tools I needed to change my life.  For years now, I have been escaping each and every day to the woods around my home: ten minutes of a recorded meditation and ten minutes of silence. 

A couple of weeks ago, thanks to technological eavesdropping, after asking my partner  what Joe Dispenza meant by “Space-Time” and “Time-Space”, up pops on my YouTube feed a meditation by Joe Dispenza on “Space-Time” and “Time-Space”.

The meditation is sixty minutes long, and I have been doing this almost daily for weeks.

It is not easy. 

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In Deep Gratitude to Donald Trump by Caryn MacGrandle

“Show me someone without an ego, and I’ll show you a loser.”
― Donald Trump

“Life’s most persistent and urgent question is, “What are you doing for others?”
Martin Luther King, Jr.

The fabric of our world is falling apart.

And it is necessary.

Last night, I took a job entering early results for elections.  My assignment was in a small city 30 miles away from me.  I found the courthouse and the courtroom where the election officials, law officials and others had gathered.

As I was waiting, I listened and observed.

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