So, again, you, the most holy and enlightened man of the mosque have pointed your finger at me to declare, noisy and hysterical, that I am an “Enemy of Islam.” Then you, who preaches and recites best, have gone out there slandering me, “eating my flesh,” devotedly.
“Enemy of Islam.” Well, which Islam? Is there one unique Islam? Why is your Islam, THE Islam? There are so many ways to be Muslim, or, didn’t you know?
You seem to follow the principle “you believe like me or you believe against me,” especially when the discussion is about women. In your narrow view, I am an enemy of Islam because I’m a feminist, radical, progressive woman. I am engaged in interfaith dialogue and in political struggle against discrimination instead of “being at home serving [my] husband as a good Muslimah.”
I know you. I have seen you from the pulpit of your arrogance-ignorance saying you are committed to a jihad, deciding who is Muslim or not, who goes to heaven and who goes to hell, who understands the right way (your way), who has the right interpretation of the Qur’an, and who are disbelievers. You have many names. Your name is Malik, Abu Eesa, Bilal. Your name also is Furqan, Abdallah, Kareem, Muhammad or even Hussein. You call yourself Sheikh, Ayatollah or Mullah. You call yourself Scholar and you state no woman can know better than you.
You call me an ENEMY OF ISLAM? Perhaps, because:
I adhere to the Qur’an when Allah says: Read, Think, Reflect. I “dare” to question what I learn. I am not afraid to make mistakes, and I defend my right to think. I don’t ask permission to learn and teach; I do it without waiting for Qatar or Saudi bursaries. I know you respect the Qur’an, so what is the problem?
I see your racism, misogyny and homophobia as you try to hide behind the shield of religion. As a Feminist – Deal with it Abu Eesa– I do what Islam commands: Repairing, denouncing, and rejecting injustice, with my loudest voice, with all my energy and my entire heart.
Despite my so-called “heresies,” many people open their minds to Islam and put aside their prejudices when they hear my public lectures. I have not needed to disguise myself, nor to arrogate myself a special power, nor to deny my past, nor to assume a bullying tone, nor to threaten people with hell. It has been enough to speak honestly.
I have problems of CONSCIOUSNESS and CONSCIENCE. I feel disgusted to pray self-censored behind you in Mosques financed with the same money that allow Boko Haram and ISIL keep going on. I feel disgusted to be offered every Ramadan a bag of date fruits sponsored by nations where the rights of Muslim women and minority groups are bashed on a daily basis. I feel disgusted by the extravagance of Eids when the luxury of banquets or eagerness to get the biggest piece of lamb cause a massive amnesia about the real meaning of these celebrations.
Please don’t insist: I want to be a Muslim, not an Arab. I don’t want to look, act, and live as an Arab woman. I respect the right to identity, especially exercising my right to mine. I am proud of my historical and linguistic heritage. My priority is to be myself rather than fit into any mold. I want to be a fulfilled person instead of a “Perfect Muslimah.” You distort the tradition at your convenience. You claim to follow the example of Prophet Muhammad regarding women, but you’re just a sexist tyrant bully. You want women to feel ashamed for not reflecting your own opinion and image about us. Learn this: Muslim women are teachers, warriors, and leaders, with and without the veil, not to be equated with sweets, gemstones, or candy.
I refuse to accept that a man has authority over me or is dearer in the eyes of God, just because it happens he has a penis. I chose the path of self-knowledge. I have the “audacity” to consider myself EQUAL, and I believe in a merciful Divinity that has given me, as to all of us, the gift of getting to know HER. Yes, HER.
I say Allah, God, Goddess, Divine. The womb of creation is Allah. The heart of humankind is Allah.
I say that everyone has the right to be Muslim; this includes gays, lesbians, trans and intersex people.
I say that women can talk, sing, and dance in the mosque, lead communities and preach, because there is nothing that prohibits it.
I declare myself an enemy of your HIS-LAM.
I am an enemy of your hypocrisy.
I am an enemy of violence, hatred, and segregation. I am an enemy of those who instill fear to achieve obedience and call all that Islam. I am an enemy of misogyny and of everyone who justifies the persecution of Shiites, Ahmadians, Christians and Yazidis and calls that Islam. I am an enemy of those who steal, with promises of hell, spiritual freedom from us. I am the enemy of ignorance and those who promote it, because Allah ordered knowledge. I am an enemy of the oppressors, because God hates oppressors.
Your yapping won’t silence me.
You know me. My name is Vanessa. Also I have many names. My Muslim name is Nasreen. Also, it is Khadija, Asra, Zainab, Sakina. My name is Amina, Sherazhad, Fatima, Ayesha, Sarah, Hagar, Aisha, Farah, Wallada, Lubna, Shehnaz, Asma. I have all the names you want to erase from history. All the names of all the women you’ve censored, discriminated against, cornered, mocked, and abused on behalf of your His-lam. All the names of all the women raising their voices above yours to say that Islam is Peace and there’s no peace without justice; a justice that includes gender justice.
Carve this in your mind: Islam is peace only if we women are living in justice.
Vanessa Rivera de la Fuente is a Writer, Mentor and Community Educator in Capacity Building for Grass Roots Female Leaders and Advocates. A Muslim Feminist who is an Independent Researcher of Gender and Islam in Latin America on Feminist Hermeneutics, Muslim Women Representations, Queer Identities and Movement Building. She blogs in Spanish at Mezquita de Mujeres, a site dedicated to explore the links between Gender, Religion and Feminism as well to Women from the Global South as Change Makers in their communities.
Wow. Brave. I support you. Women in South Africa, as in the world, are being told we have no right to Self, to Personal Choice. It’s wrong and I oppose it.
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Thanks. I will be in South Africa soon. I d would be glad to meet women and know about their struggles and activism.
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Where in South Africa do you plan to visit? Try and get in touch with the ANC Women’s League – they need the inspiration! Zubeida Shaik, who is the organiser for One Billion Rising in South AFrica is on Linkedin, … We recently had to listen to South Africa’s polygamist president, with regard to his daughter’s marriage: ”it’s a distortion if a woman decides to remain single” or words to that effect. Quite a dangerous statement in a Very Patriarchal society.
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Hello Petru: This is my new Facebook https://www.facebook.com/vrdelafuente.73
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I will be in Cape Town Inshallah since June to September to attend a workshop. Please fell free to contact me by the email in my bio or pass my info to someone you think it could be glad to meet me.
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Love your post and your unabashed affirmation of your self.
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Thank you very much Carol. Your words always so nurturing.
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Enjoyed your new word and definition His-lam. Goes well with mansplaining.
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Glad you like it. Thanks
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Powerful and engaging post. Thanks, Vanessa.
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Thank you Esther. I am glad you like it
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Brava! These words could as well be said to the priests, ministers, bishops, rabbis and other male leaders of most any organized religion you choose today. I’m tired of women submitting to these male-dominated religions created by men with the idea that there is only a masculine divinity and that men are therefore superior and should wield power over women. When are women the world over going to speak out against this control and acquiescence to the father God and insist that of course there has to also be a mother God for that is the way of creation, the way of humanity, and therefore divinity? You give me hope, Vanessa, that in the madness of the world right now in which all manner of sacrilege, rape, brutal killings and wars are perpetrated in the name of patriarchal religious authority and the dominance of one gender over another, that there is the possibility of a shift, maybe even a revolution, when men and women stand up and speak truth to power and refuse to submit.
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Well said Vanessa. If we change a few words here and there we could, as Saladd wrote, send it to multiple other denominations. Thank you for your courage and faithfulness.
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Thanks! I agree what I say can be applied to any area of life where women have to deal with misogyny and male entitlement that results to be the most of areas of life, sadly. But, at the same time, I think if we empower ourselves and start to give ourselves credits, we can make a stand and transform our environments.
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Right on, write on! Love the litany of names!
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Wow, I bet if Pinochet were still alive and in power, no matter than you’re not writing about him, he’d get you disappeared really fast. Do these other arrogant, hypocritical misogynists you address have the power to physically harm you? This may be the most courageous post I’ve ever read. Take good care of yourself!
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Oh Barbara. Thanks for your comment. I started activism in the last part of the 80s during Pinochet Regime. I was 13 years old maybe when I marched in support of “NO” meaning for his leaving from the government. Arrogant hypocritical misogynyst have been always a presence in my life but my attitude has been always the same to: I don’t fear them.
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You are marvelously courageous. You have a strong heart. Good luck as you travel around the world.
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THANK YOU..!!
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Welcome :)
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One of my favorite pieces by you Vanessa – and that’s saying a lot. Thank you for your brilliant writing and courage dear sister.
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Thank you very much Trista for your encouraging words. I am glad you like it.
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(H)Islam reminds me of what we used to call the histrionics of Christianity.
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Thanks.
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Many thanks Vanessa for your clear articulation. It is inspiring because of its truth. May others be so inspired to speak their truth unabashedly and with pride and know that their voice will be heard.
I’m glad to know that you will be in South Africa soon which is where I live. Will you let us know?
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Thank you for reading and I am glad you like it. I will be in Cape Town since june until september for a training program and of course I am interested in meeting sisters, brothers, activists, all people who want to have a chat. Please feel free to contact me through my email or twitter. I would be glad to connect.
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Thank you, I will.
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Powerful post, Vanessa. I love the neologism (H)Islam!
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Feminism is easy to grasp…it equates to equality before the law.
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That’s too easy to be enough. That was a definition for our grannies, invented for white middle class women. I think now we know the women world regarding rights and gender justice is broader than this.
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Brava Sister!!!
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