“When all is said and done I think every Witch should, at some time, face the moon alone, feet planted on the ground, with only his or her voice chanting in the starry night.”
–Laurie Cabot, Power of the Witch
I will never forget the first time I heard someone recite the Charge of the Goddess from memory. Bare-breasted, she strode around the fire in sacred circle at a large goddess festival in Kansas, delivering the words with power, grace, and confident resonance. I thought: I will do that someday.
In February of this year, we took a family trip to Dauphin Island. While there, the afternoon of the full moon, I
decided that the time had come. I was going to memorize the Charge of the Goddess. First, I thought I would only memorize it a piece at a time. It seemed “too big” to do in a single sitting. I had it printed out on a piece of paper that rapidly became damp with the salty sea air. I drew a labyrinth in the sand with my toes, set one of my goddess sculptures at its entrance, and drew a Womanrunes card.
One stanza at a time, slowly I began to repeat the poem* aloud:
hear ye, the words of the star goddess
the dust of whose feet are the hosts of heaven...
Over and over, I said the words, letting them twine around my tongue and in the air, experimenting with cadence and rhythm. After I could reliably repeat one section, I’d move to the next, letting it build in my memory until I could put the two together confidently and then moving to the next.
I am the beauty of the green earth
the white moon amongst the stars..
I stared into the waves, listening to them rise and fall along with my words. My three older children dug in the sand.
My husband fished. My toddler toddled around and then came to sit on my lap and nursed to sleep for nap time:
before my face
beloved of all…
I whispered into his damp hair. I felt in an altered state of consciousness. The words began to wind their way through me, becoming a part of me, embedded in me. I danced with them as I have never danced with another piece of writing. I felt them merging with me. I sang them aloud. I stated them fast and slow and I built, adding the next line and then the next…
for behold, all acts of love and pleasure
all my rituals.
I turned over hard thealogical questions as the words spun their magic through the air. What does it really mean that “all your learning and seeking shall avail you not, lest your know the mystery.” Do I really feel the goddess within? Do I find her within myself or is she only outside and if she is only outside, does she really exist at all? Tears came to my eyes: do I even like myself?
Two hours passed. My baby awoke and returned to digging in the sand. My husband packed up his fishing gear. The sky began to darken and spit rain. I stood and danced the words into the sand with my feet.
let your divine innermost self
in the rapture
of the infinite
I felt rapturous. I felt triumphant. I had done it. Faster and faster my feet stamped the sand as I called the words into the waves. I spun in circles with my toddler chanting and laughing and offering my devotion before the sea, beneath the moon.
the mystery of the waters
the desire in human hearts…
*I used Shekhinah Mountainwater’s adaptation of the Charge, originally by Doreen Valiente, as included in the book Ariadne’s Thread.
Molly has been “gathering the women” to circle, sing, celebrate, and share since 2008. She plans and facilitates women’s circles, seasonal retreats and rituals, mother-daughter circles, family ceremonies, and red tent circles in rural Missouri and teaches online courses in Red Tent facilitation and Practical Priestessing. She is a priestess who holds MSW and M.Div degrees and recently finished her dissertation about contemporary priestessing in the U.S. Molly and her husband Mark co-create original goddess sculptures, ceremony kits, and jewelry at Brigid’s Grove. Molly is the author of Womanrunes, Earthprayer, and The Red Tent Resource Kit. She writes about thealogy, nature, practical priestessing, and the goddess at her Woodspriestess blog.
9 thoughts on “Facing the Moon Alone by Molly Remer”
Really beautiful and moving.
I wish someone would record the music that Shekinah put the Charge to. I heard her sing it for the first time back in the 80s, at a Reformed Congregation of the Goddess gathering in Wisconsin. A melody worthy of this magnificent invocation.
Was Shekhina’s melody ever recorded? I would love to learn it.
It was, and i once had a cassette of it, but don’t know where it is. It doesn’t seem to be on her website. http://shekhinah.net/Soul%20Songs.htm I remember some of it, could sing it for you on skype. Someday, after my book goes to press.
Brava! I once spent a weekend conference with Z. Budapest in Topanga Canyon in which we learned Starthawk’s version of the Charge of the Goddess. Speaking the Charge with a group of women is powerful, just as your magical work with it sounds powerful.
Beautiful! Blessed Be!
AS I told you on your website (blogsite?), you’ve inspired me to learn the “Charge of the Star Goddess” by heart. But now that I know it’s been set to music, I want to learn the music as well.
Beautiful post, thank you for this. <3
This is just beautiful Molly – you have inspired me to do it. I spent the first 20 years of my life memorizing bible verses, and then many more memorizing the Qu’ran – but somehow, damn it, I don’t know The Charge of the Goddess or any of the Our Mother adaptations – and this is really sad!
If Molly will sing it into a recording device and send it to me, I will transcribe it for the community, just let me know! I would love the music to this as well!