‘A Wolf in Sheep’s Clothing’ by Sara Wright

The Power of Dreams to Forecast Future Events

I have been a dreamer all my life and within the last six weeks I have had a number of dreams that both frightened and baffled me. How is it possible I ask myself that after 40 years of dream jounraling and being trained as analyst that I am still that stupid?

Part of the answer is that I don’t pay close enough attention to warnings when I can’t make sense of them. For example, when these dreams began someone I didn’t know had contacted me out of the blue and insinuated himself into my life by praising someone I love. The very next night I had a dream that told me that a man was coming to harm me.

When I awakened I thought about this stranger, but discarded him immediately as the threat because he seemed so sincere and kind. We struck up a long distance communication that seemed benign, although I must admit that from the beginning I was suspicious of his talk of having an instant ‘spiritual conversion’ and the “high” that accompanied it. I also felt wary of the man’s obsession with light, and his identification with it. I have learned through life experience that when people identify with light there is always a hidden shadow element present.  

 At the same time I began to have some physical problems that only arise when the “I” in me is at odds with what my body knows to be true. I questioned the stranger’s motives, but couldn’t anchor anything threatening in his behavior beyond his obsession with light, which continued to trouble me. Identifying oneself with light is like becoming a god, and false gods proclaim their superiority at other’s expense. They KNOW.  

Somewhat confused, I attributed my physical symptoms to very real fear and anxiety around not being able to take care of myself this winter. I attempted to deal with my anxiety by keeping my awareness focused on this issue. Trying to work with my fears didn’t help. I was baffled.

A second very frightening dream occurred in which a HUGE BIRCH with elephantine arms was threatening me. Immediately, I attributed this dream to the winter birch holocaust of last year, wondering if more trees were going to fall in another ice -storm. I didn’t know then that this man was also obsessed with a dead man named – you guessed it, Birch.

I stopped sleeping. My body couldn’t rest.

I dreamed about a monster boy. 

I dreamed I need a light to see though this darkness.

I dreamed that someone was interfering with my brother’s real story.

I dreamed a predator was near.

I dreamed that I was building a house that also looked like a boat and its prow had many windows, but I couldn’t see what was behind me.

On January 6, the beginning of the New Year and the Feast of Epiphany, I dreamed I must attend to my body’s truth. Frustrated, I had no idea what else I could do, beyond what I was already doing.

I dreamed I saw a hideous desert –like muddy vortex swirling in the ground that was trying to pull me in.

In the final two dreams I was buried under three feet of snow, and a tree that was also me was chopped down.

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The very next day this stranger betrayed my brother and me, my family, living and dead, in a most heinous way.

The “Wolf” had finally identified and exposed himself as the Predator he was.

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Happily the story doesn’t end there. What I didn’t mention is that in between the troubling dreams during the last six weeks, I had a series of three powerful dreams about my brother that indicated that all was well and that he lived deep in a forest he loved with the deer. These dreams overrode the egregious actions of the wolf, and left me in a state of peace.

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 As my dearest cousin and I untangled the tale of “the wolf in sheep’s clothing” we recovered what had been stolen for only one day, the truth around my brother’s life, who he really was, and who he might have become.

 Billy reiterated, “We are Family!”.

It’s probably not necessary to add that both of us have developed into people we respect. We know our shortcomings and can own them. Integrity, humility and compassion come to those of us who are willing to take responsibility for our lives and have learned how to love. Being able to be emotionally present for one another is just how we are together.

Is it any wonder that my gratitude runs beneath this story like a great underground river?

Postscript:

I wrote out this personal experience to close a brief chapter in my life, but also to help me understand how I managed to miss the meaning behind so many threatening dreams. The key seems to lie with my body. Like that of any animal, she is always instinctively grounded in truth.

 The “I” in me is easily confused, and if my mind cannot make rational sense out of dream messages, I choose my own words (read: interpretations) instead of turning to my body and asking her to help me uncover what my feelings are trying to warn me about.

The bottom line is that I am still privileging mind over body as my culture has taught me to do.

The other problem belongs to me. One of my good qualities is that I am genuinely kind and generous. I routinely project* my kindness/ generosity onto others. This tendency has gotten me into more trouble in my life than the reader can imagine. I still don’t know how to stop doing this with other people, because today I do own my generosity of spirit.

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*Projection, a Jungian term, occurs when we can’t own a quality either positive or negative in ourselves and unconsciously place it on another person admiring or vilifying that individual. All humans engage in this behavior.

Either way, the challenge is to learn to see when this is happening, and to own and integrate that quality into our own personality with awareness.  It can be just as difficult to own a positive quality, as it is to integrate one that is negative, but if we are to mature we must learn to do both or we will continue to see people through a distorted lens.

Picture of Sara Wright standing outside in nature

BIO: Sara is a naturalist, ethologist (a person who studies animals in their natural habitats) (former) Jungian Pattern Analyst, and a writer. She publishes her work regularly in a number of different venues and is presently living in Maine.



Categories: Abuse of Power, Dreams and Dreaming, Feminism, General

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13 replies

  1. Thank you Sara,
    there’s depth and such truth in this writing.
    Like you, I have made similar mistakes, misreading dreams and looking back realised how badly!
    At 64, I’m still working on that bottom line.

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  2. Thank you for sharing Sara! Reminds me of the time I was magnetized to a preacher who tried to exorcize a ‘demon’ from me. Took me years to uncover the truth that this was an aspect of my feminine trapped in fear. Once I integrated Her, my life has changed as my consciousness has expanded. I am curious about the ‘Light” though as I do identify with my light, dark and shadow but because I am a Christ follower it feels naturally to be drawn to the Light as the highest awareness of truth and love. I will be contemplating further that’s for sure!! Be well.

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    • I understand your position on Light because, as you say you are a Christian. I do have to add that privileging light over dark can be dangerous – I think we need a balance of both. Too much light casts no shadows….

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  3. Ah, dreamers – we do have problem! Our bodies know and we privilege our thinking – and this admission from a life time dreamer goes to show how inculcated this mind body split is in us. Everyone dreams but if we think they are nonsense we pay no attention and lose the opportunity for body to speak….

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  4. Wow wow wow–your dreams are amazing. And so, well, useful. Yes, we do need to pay attention hopefully learn from our dreams as you are doing. Watching out now for wolves and predators and other things that just are not right. We need to learn our lessons, however they come to us, right? Bright blessings to your dreams and insights and visions and truth.

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  5. Well, I didn’t exactly pay close enough attention did I??? Privileging mind over body can be dangerous to our health… although in these dark these days if I didn’t have mind to escape into I would be crazy. So there it is.

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  6. It can be so easy to miss messages our bodies and dreams are giving us – we are so bombarded with information these days. I’m so glad you finally listened! I am especially happy you got your three powerful dreams about your brother. I had a similar dream about someone who passed away – that he was happy in a forest with animals and I still find it comforting 40 years later. And deer are so deeply symbolic and so closely intertwined with us humans!

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    • In my case Carolyn I “couldn’t make sense” of the dreams and simply left them… mind wins out over body -Interesting that you had a dream like the ones I had about my brother – my brother wore a little deerskin jacket until he couldn’t get it on anymore and then he slept with it – so to see him with the deer – well – I’ve never been the same since those dreams – speaking of deer – the dark side is the ticks – just today I clipped my poor little dog’s hair because ticks begin the second there is a warm day and we have had such terrible extremes – supposed to be almost 60 again tomorrow – I have always loved deer but now when I see them close to the house I worry and they are here alot.

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  7. This post really resonates with me. I’ve just started keeping a dream journal for the first time in my life. I am in my early 30s. I’m so glad I started writing my dreams down because I’ve realized how these dreams are often sending me messages and maybe even guiding me. There have been eerie synchronicities at times.

    I am recovering from a destabilizing experience of trusting a man who hurt me terribly. From the beginning, my body was warning me to stay away. I had massive anxiety to a degree that I’d never really known before. My inner voice was trying to protect and guide me, but I did not listen. I ignored the powerful signals that originated from my body. It cost me a lot and caused horrible pain to me.

    But that pain has led me somewhere important. It’s the reason I found feminist spirituality and came across this website! The whole experience, while deeply agonizing and damaging, became the catalyst for my own spiritual awakening. I’m learning to trust myself, to listen to my body and my inner voice, to love myself, to try to heal from past trauma, and to go toward love and connection. I still have a long road ahead of me when it comes to recovering from the whole experience, but I know I’m on the right path finally because I’m listening to my inner voice and staying true to her.

    Like you, Sara, I am a kind, generous, and sensitive soul. I am open to others and try to be giving and nurturing. It’s gotten me into trouble as well because not everyone is kind, not everyone cares in the same way. I try to hold on to the good people as much as I can because they are so rare in this world.

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  8. Those are amazing dreams. They show for me how everything is interconnected, and how we know this in our bodies. I remember, many years ago, I was with an extremely destructive man, and I had a feeling of doom unlike I’d never had before in both my body and my mind, but part of my mind ignored it, or perhaps postponed facing it. When I ended the relationship, this man broke into my office and destroyed all my academic files.I wish I’d had your blog to read back then!

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