In preparation for my hysterectomy, I decided to spend a night in a dolmen at Samhain last year, to seek guidance and healing. I chose Dolmen de Bajouilière in Saint-Rémy-la-Varenne, in Northern France, a site I had discovered by chance the previous year on my local explorations.
This well-preserved structure, with its spacious square divided into two rooms, felt inviting and safe for an overnight ritual. Though I am accustomed to spending nights in neolithic monuments, mostly in the UK, I felt some hesitation, partly due to my intermediate French and unfamiliarity with the local spirits.

Nevertheless, I recognized this resistance as part of the ego’s fear of the unknown, and I gave myself permission to retreat if needed. If I would feel too vulnerable, it wouldn’t serve my body and spirit ahead of the surgery. Please join me on my overnight Samhain Ceremony full of deep imagery and transformation as I shed my womb three times…
Arrival and Preparation
Arriving around 4 PM, I encountered a family with a dog leaving the site, and a man with dowsing rods mapping ley lines. After he departed, I introduced myself to the spirit of the site and the oak tree standing sentinel. I asked for permission to hold my ceremony for healing and preparation, feeling a peaceful welcome wrap around me.
Setting up the sacred space involved both practical and intangible layers. I created an altar, invited my allies, and sang my Song of Power. The centerpiece was a womb of yellow shells from Brittany, along with a red Womb Bag I made during my ectopic pregnancy healing rituals and a handcrafted Sheela Na Gig figure. My intention was to give thanks for my life and the growth impulse brought by the fibroid rooted deep in my womb, ready to release what no longer served and open space for new energy.
Once the inner space was established, I moved outside and walked three sun-wise circles around the dolmen to demarcate the sacred space. Consecrating the circle with water, fire, and herbal smoke, I wove protection and intention into the night ahead. After brushing my teeth and preparing the fire, I gathered branches to light it at sundown. That night, I would shed my womb three times.

Into the Dream Time
The first shedding occurred outside, just after lighting the ceremonial fire. I burned the pregnancy tests I had kept since my ectopic pregnancy five years earlier. Watching the tests dissolve felt like freeing the spirit child. I also burned the womb installation with the unborn paper foetus inside, and finally, the linen womb bag. This was the FIRST shedding of my womb.
After sitting by the fire and singing, I went inside the dolmen, sat at the left side of the inner entrance, with my back to the opening. As I meditated on the altar, a profound shift occurred. I felt my womb dissolving. Once the sensation faded, I rearranged the altar to reflect this, placing the shells in a large spiral. I had a strong feeling of flowing outward, connecting from single womb to entire universe, as well as back inward – the spiral always going in multiple directions. This was the SECOND shedding of my womb.


Left: Womb Altar at the start. Right: Womb Altar transformed into Spiral.
Navigating the pitch-black dolmen on this moon-less night by touch and intuition, I felt held in a womb-like embrace. The night settled as I curled into my sleeping bag, leaving only a small breathing hole. Acorns lay on the floor, symbolizing potential and growth. As the candle burned low, shadows danced on the tomb’s ceiling, and time seemed to dissolve.
At some point, I felt the need to realign my body with the dolmen’s energy lines. I shifted until my head was beneath the altar, my hips at the inner chamber and my feet pointed to the exit. My spine seemed to flow in sync with the underground waterways, and my body expanded beyond the tomb. I felt formless, as though I received an imprint of the Goddess.
Then, a neolithic medicine woman appeared. She performed psychic surgery, extracting dead energy from my abdomen and placing a bright, throbbing womb-heart into a bowl of liquid. This was the THIRD shedding of my womb. As she sang to my life force, a tree of light grew from this transformed womb-energy. It would need to find healthy roots outside my body, in open space for growth.

During this healing, an owl hooted mournfully outside. Then came a deep silence—no sounds from animals, wind, or water. I dreamed I looked in a mirror and saw my body, but my head was gone. The shock woke me, and I was disoriented. I turned onto my belly, feeling as if I sank into the earth, merging with rock and soil. It felt as if Eline had gone ‘offline,’ having died to ordinary life. I don’t know how long I stayed in this sacred posture, but it felt profound.
Return
In the twilight of re-awakening, more inspiration and images arrived. My path forward, the dance between land and body, was reaffirmed. I recognised the importance of in-between time—allowing ideas to germinate without rushing into action. Slowly, I began to emerge from the liminal space, unraveling the sacred space step by step.
I thanked the altar as the heart of the ceremony, visualising my path as though birthing myself into a new configuration. The dolmen had been both tomb and womb—a place to release the old, learn from the ancestors, and emerge renewed, ready for the next chapters of my life.

Five days later, I underwent surgery, feeling that the neolithic shaman had already done much of the work. The operation and recovery went smoothly, and now, back at work, I continue to harvest the wisdom gifts of this extraordinary experience, and I wish for every midlife woman to have deep reflection and ceremonial time – although preferably without the need for medical intervention!
References
All image credits Eline Kieft.
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Bio

Eline Kieft danced from a young age, including rigorous classical and contemporary training to become a professional dancer. She then studied anthropology, deepening her fascination with worldwide similarities between indigenous traditions regarding intangible aspects of reality and other ways of knowing, including embodied epistemologies and shamanic techniques.
She completed her PhD in dance anthropology at Roehampton University, trained in depth with the Scandinavian Centre for Shamanic Studies and the School of Movement Medicine. Eline worked at the Centre for Dance Research (C-DaRE) at Coventry University for five years, where she created a Somatics Toolkit for Ethnographers, and pioneered soulful academic pedagogy. Her recent book Dancing in the Muddy Temple: A Moving Spirituality of Land and Body was well received as a unique blend of theory and practice and a medicine for our times.
She is now a full-time change-maker and facilitates deep transformation through coaching and courses both online and in person. Wild Soul Centre offers a set of embodied, creative, and spiritual tools to re-connect with inner strength and navigate life’s challenges with confidence.
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Thank you for sharing your wonderful healing journey.
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Glad you enjoyed it Adele!
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What you demonstrate here is the power of ceremony if done with humility and openness, and situated somewhere (anywhere) in Nature to help you shift your awareness and align yourself with what is/will be/what was… these ceremonies are holy undertakings…and all each of us has to do is to create the necessary space for these shifts to occur. I am deeply moved by this post and thank you for sharing this experience with us.
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Thank you Sara, for your precise reflections as always. Sorry for the late acknowledgement of your reply, I’ve been away from my computer for a few weeks! Was there something specific that moved you?
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Awesome. Doing the work replicates the work making it more accessible for more people. Thank you for bringing your transformation to the world and sharing your healing. I feel the ripples of your ancient medicine and am grateful for them. We need this so much.
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I love what you write about the ripples, YES!
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