Una Hora de Vida, Es Vida! by Xochitl Alvizo

I learned, recently, that this is a common phrase among my family members – “an hour of life, is life.” I remember the first time I heard my mom use the phrase, not more than a few years ago, I latched onto it immediately. Since then, I have realize that many of my relatives use the phrase – it’s kind of a family mantra, which makes sense, then, that when I heard it, it reverberated within me—“Yes! An hour of life is life.”

To me it was a clarion call to not waste a single hour – to never think, “Oh, but I only have an hour…” and instead embrace the hour for all its potentiality—I have an hour, what will I do with it?

On the other end of things, for years I’ve had a recurring dream of my dying. I am driving a bus but I have no vision—either because of dense fog or deep darkness. I’m steering blind on a steep mountain, driving on very windy roads, a bus full of people, and the brakes have given out! I am driving for our lives and am surprised that I’ve been able to stay on the road and guess the turns for as long as I have. But, eventually, inevitably, I end up driving us off the road to our death.

In my dream there is total calm and surrender as the bus floats, falls, the downward distance to the ground far below. I am fully aware of the moment and peacefully think, “This is it. This is the end, and it’s happening now. This is how I go.” And in that downward falling time, I begin to send out my thoughts/messages to all the people I love. I consciously think of my mom and my dad and send them love. I let them know that I think they are amazing and that I couldn’t have asked for anyone better. I let them know that I’m ok and that I am leaving well and in peace. From there, I think through a list of my beloved people and “send” them my messages and my love…

I’ve always found it curious that I dream of my dying this way, and that there is a complete sense of peace and acceptance about it. There’s also the experience and sensation of being suspended in air, the slow-motion downward fall that becomes a chance to send love, affirmation, and reassurances to my loved ones. I have never minded the dream. It mostly just trips me out.

Now, in living time 😊, two Sundays ago, I went on a 12-hour walk. I did this after my friend mentioned that she was doing this and after reading the corresponding book by the same title. The idea is to be with just yourself, walking at your own pace and resting as needed, but challenging yourself to keep going for 12 hours without any external input – no music, no podcast, no phone calls or conversation – just you, with you.

It was challenging in the physical sense—my right knee started hurting after 6 hours and the day I scheduled myself to go on the walk the weather was cold and drizzly throughout, so that was a bit unpleasant. But mentally and emotionally, all was well. I enjoyed myself and I especially enjoyed the parks and plants through which I walked all day. I also learned that I very easily think about the teaching lessons that I can create from the things I see and discover as I go through my day.

I discovered that Toyon is why Hollywood is so named – the “holly” plant is native to the hills of LA and covered the surrounding area. Who knew?!

All this brings me full circle, to this very random thought-experiment: If I only had an hour left of life, what would I do?

During my walk, I discovered what I would do with my “una hora de vida.” I would go to the park, out into nature, even if just a nearby patch of earth (I do live in the city after all), and I would sit on the ground and write. I would breathe, take in the air, feel it fill my lungs. I would feel the earth beneath me, around me, and the sky above me. I would smile at them all and I would thank them, grateful to have gotten to take part in their whole. And then I would use the hour to write. I would put my love into words for my family and friends to read. I would tell them I’m ok; that I am grateful for their love and for their being. That they are good and that I was lucky to have been a part of them.

I would sit there and feel the whole, the whole of which I have gotten to be part, and I would acknowledge and feel the connection to it all.

Once done writing, I would fold the paper and sign my scribbly signature on the outside. I would hold it to my heart in gratitude for the time I had with all the people I love. I would say out loud, I love you, and I would smile.

Una hora de vida, es vida…what might you do with yours?


Xochitl Alvizo, loves all things feminist, womanist, and decolonial. She often finds herself on the boundary of different social and cultural contexts, and works hard to develop her voice and to hear and encourage the voice of others. Her work is inspired by the conviction that all people are inextricably connected and what we do, down to the smallest thing, matters; it makes a difference for good or for ill. She teaches in the area of Women and Religion, and the Philosophy of Sex, Gender, and Sexuality, at California State University, Northridge. She lives in Los Angeles, CA where she was also born and raised.

Author: Xochitl Alvizo

Feminist theologian, Christian identified. Associate Professor of Religious Studies in the area of Women and Religion and the Philosophy of Sex Gender and Sexuality at California State University, Northridge. Her research is focused in Congregational Studies, Feminist and Quuer Theologies, and Ecclesiology specifically. Often finding herself on the boundary of different social and cultural contexts, she works hard to develop her voice and to hear and encourage the voice of others. Her work is inspired by the conviction that all people are inextricably connected and the good one can do in any one area inevitably and positively impacts all others.

9 thoughts on “Una Hora de Vida, Es Vida! by Xochitl Alvizo”

  1. What an incredible meditation. Thank you for that. What would I do if I had a whole hour? I think I would hug as many people that I love as possible and for those too far away to reach in an hour, there is always zoom, facetime and telephones.


  2. My partner is going through a huge health scare and I think this piece could be helpful. The fragility of life is so tangible. The dream you describe is interesting that you die but still wake up. Thank you for sharing.


    1. Thank you. And all good wishes to you partner. I like Carolyn’s comment below – every day really is sacred. May you both get through the scare with health and much love.


  3. Yes – an hour of life is indeed life! This has so many meanings and you have explored them so well! When I was facing a serious health crisis, thankfully now resolved, I realized that all I really wanted to do was what I usually did – go to work, have dinner with my family, go for Sunday afternoon walks in nature. Realizing that every day is precious and sacred, even if sometimes very hard, is such a gift. Thank you for sharing your wisdom, as always!


  4. Oh Xochitl, such an incredibly moving post – I love seeing the artist bloom in you in this particular way… the importance of each day is sometimes lost to me – too many chores – distractions all – so I always find days when I can be free to simply BE with nature. Although these days I am not without an iPhone because I walk alone in the woods and am getting old I do not use it unless there is a plant or bird or slant of light that I must catch…otherwise, it’s nature and me and if I am still and open then I become all there is. my earnest prayer is that my final moments be spent in such a way. Thank you so much!


  5. Couldn’t help but think of Kate Chopin’s short story, “The Story of an Hour.” So much can happen in that time frame!

    BTW, I frequently have the dream you describe here except I always wake up shortly before going over the cliff. I always wonder (even in my dream) how I make turns and stay on the road when I cannot see!

    Loved this essay. All we have is the “now.”


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