Expectations and Fulfillment by Gina Messina

Version 2What is happiness? We all seek it. And yet, it seems so difficult to define. We often find ourselves drawn to options for synthetic happiness — having more things. I am embarrassed to admit that when I am struggling, I distract myself with retail therapy. And now, I don’t even have to leave my bed to do it. A few clicks and a package will show up at my doorstep in two days. However, once it arrives, I usually don’t remember placing the order. It is a transient fix that allows me to avoid feeling. I am guilty. 

Admittedly, I can be shallow. I fall into the trappings of our materialistic and youth obsessed culture. I am easily swayed by the ad telling me that I need a new face cream to smooth my deepening wrinkles, shapewear to hide the reality of my aging body, or the new miracle pill that promises to speed up my sluggish metabolism. I participate in a culture that tells me that as a woman, my appearance is more important than my health and that growing old will leave me grotesque, alone, and having no value.

Living in a capitalistic society, we cannot engage in synthetic happiness unless we have money. Thus, we are always seeking the higher paying job, working more hours for a few extra pennies in hopes it will be enough to compete with our neighbors. In the meantime, our expectations keep us from ever being fulfilled. 

We have ideas about what happiness feels like: The excitement we experience the first time we fall in love; the joy of watching your child’s first steps; or the relief you feel when you have a moment of quiet. We’ve experienced these moments, and yet, they are fleeting. Such an understanding implies that we live mundane existences waiting for something to wake us. It reminds me of the novel/movie, The Hours; the idea that we throw parties to cover the silence.

Rabbi Hyman Schachtel has argued that happiness is wanting what you have. It seems a noble statement; be thankful for your blessings and stop being covetous. I almost want to “buy” into it. Yet, this philosophy is still focused on materialism and is based in privileged thinking. Power structures and social injustice continue to dictate who has what they need. No mother watching her child starve should be told to be grateful. No one who is denied equity based on oppression should be told to have gratitude for the scraps society has tossed them. 

Dr. Fred Luskin of Stanford University agrees with Schachtel and explains that we often focus on negativity and in doing so, continuously injure ourselves. His book, Forgive for Good calls us to let go of our anger and instead recognize the beauty in our lives. I admit that I have been quite taken with his perspective and regularly listen to his lectures. However, this appeals to me because I am a white woman with privilege. And I wonder, should we let go of righteous anger directed at the ongoing marginalization and perpetrated violence against the historically disenfranchised? Or can righteous anger be just and sometimes the only way to confront the structures and systems that control wealth and access to basic human rights?

I often find myself drawn to painting, “The Tree of Life” by Gustav Klimt. You’ve likely seen it. Perhaps you’ve given it a glance, or even stopped for a moment to consider its mastery. Or maybe like me, you have found yourself enveloped in the colors and swirls effortlessly stroked on to the canvas, engaging in dialogue about the meaning of true happiness. 

Klimt Tree of Life 2

Klimt sought to make a definitive statement about what happiness is. I realize that some may find this work problematic due to representations of the masculine and feminine. This said, for me, the symbolism and meaning connects me to an understanding of spirituality, life’s journey, and fulfillment. 

The tree of life is an important symbol in theologies and mythologies. It represents the space between the underworld and the hereafter; while also connecting the physical and spiritual with its roots deeply planted and its branches reaching into the sky. The perpetuity of life is symbolized by the swirling limbs that twist, spiral, and tangle drawing our attention to life’s complexities while the tree’s roots call to mind that every living thing birthed will grow, die, and return to the earth. 

To the left of the tree is a woman who represents expectations. She is early on in her life’s journey and like the tree’s branches she wants to reach for that which is beyond her scope. Her curiosity about the infinite squelches her ability recognize the gift of the present. With anticipation of what life will bring clouded by societal norms, it is only through growth that she will come to find happiness and fulfillment in this world. Although we devalue the process of aging, it is through our lived experiences that we will come to understand our roles as human beings and the spiritual connection between us. 

To the right of the tree is the couple representing fulfillment. For Klimt, it is only through our relationships with one another that we experience the divine. As human beings, we are not meant to be on this journey alone. Coming to understand that it is the people in our lives that should be valued — not things — is what will ultimately allow us to find happiness and fulfillment. 

We are living in a time where we are separating ourselves from one another in favor of individualism, greed, and materialism. Such a path can only lead to destruction. Happiness is not simply a fleeting moment between the dark hours, it is not synthetic or grounded in materialism, nor is it about giving in to injustice in favor of ignorance as a  distraction. It is the recognition that every moment is an opportunity to live with purpose. Our role as human beings is to be in relationship, to recognize the importance of community, and to find fulfillment in the ways that we care for one another.

Gina Messina, Ph.D. is an American feminist scholar, Catholic theologian, activist, and mom. She serves as Associate Professor of Religious Studies at Ursuline College and is co-founder of FeminismAndReligion.com. She has written for the Huffington Post and is author or editor of five books including Jesus in the White House: Make Humanity Great Again and Women Religion Revolution. Messina is a widely sought after speaker and has presented across the US at universities, organizations, conferences and on national platforms including appearances on MSNBC, Tavis Smiley, NPR and the TEDx stage. She has also spoken at the Commission on the Status of Women at the United Nations to discuss matters impacting the lives of women around the globe. Messina is active in movements to end violence against women and explores opportunities for peace building and spiritual healing. Connect with her on Twitter @GMessinaPhD, Instagram: @GinaMessinaPhD, Facebook, and her website ginamessina.com.

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5 replies

  1. Thank you, Gina, for writing this layered essay. I’ve often wondered about this as well: “And I wonder, should we let go of righteous anger directed at the ongoing marginalization and perpetrated violence against the historically disenfranchised? Or can righteous anger be just and sometimes the only way to confront the structures and systems that control wealth and access to basic human rights?” I’ve often wondered how we can continue to see disparity perpetuated by systemic injustice–racial inequality, gender inequality, rape of our environment (plants, animals) and NOT be angry? Anger, I think, can energize us, enabling us to act.

    Also, found myself agreeing with this concept in your essay: “Although we devalue the process of aging, it is our lived experiences that we will come to understand our roles as human beings and the spiritual connection between us.” As somebody brought up with the understanding that “experience” was unhelpful–almost a dirty word–I’ve come to appreciate how rich all kinds of experiences can be. Experience provides the compost we need for growth and flourishing. Eschewing experience, based on my growing-up years, was a way to keep those in power in control. No need to experience anything. Just do what we tell you do.

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  2. Thanks, Gina, for this fascinating painting, illustrating “The Tree of Life,” by that great Austrian artist, Gustav Klimt (1862-1918). In the painting, there are two faces, one near the top left side and the other on the upper right — one awake and the other sleeping. I wonder if the faces might be telling us that our everyday life and our dreams, or creativity, are both equally important parts of life’s journey?

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  3. I LOVE the music of Phillip Glass. How wonderful to listen to this clip first thing in the morning. All those images are beautiful, too. Music and art are what makes our lives worth living. Thanks for your inspiring post.


  4. The picture of the Tree of Life seems to bump into the upper border, saying that there is more to life, but it’s not all visible or known as yet. Isn’t that true! There are so many mysteries, so much growth – seen and unseen.

    What would it be like if we developed compassion along with our “righteous anger” in the face of injustice? Anger can stir up action, but it’s energy is often short lived, and if prolonged it can “eat us alive”. Compassion provides much more long-lasting energy, is more easily wed to thoughtfulness, and removes aggression from the situation.

    Thank you to all the people who have shared their thoughts here. I’ve been reading and appreciating the posts, but haven’t had time for framing a response. Thought I’d better write something or, at my age, people might think I died.
    You are all so marvelous and wonderful to know.


  5. A lot of New Age philosophies based on Buddhism lite counsel giving up anger. Sorry this is bullshit as you recognize. On the other hand I do agree with de Beauvoir who said “if we don’t love life on its own account and through others it is futile to seek to change it in any way.” For me the key is to continue to be recognize injustice and to work to end it, while at the same time appreciating and feeling grateful for what I do have and enjoying life. When I was thinking about “righteous anger” in some years ago, Rita Gross said that we need to recognize and acknowledge anger and the reasons for it (no to injustice, no to violation) while at the same time transforming anger into skillful means that can address the issues that give rise to injustice. For example, MLK was angry but he chose nonviolent means to effect social change. It is also important not to let the struggle for justice become the only purpose in our lives, because then, as de B suggests, the beauty and community we hope to create become dangerously abstract ideas.


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