The Man with the Hat by Sara Wright


I met a man on a rumbling train who had hooks in his hat.

A fisherman, I thought with the usual dismay – brutal images of dying fish gasping for air exploded in thin air. Memories of my grandmother who took her eight year old granddaughter fly fishing also flooded my mind (my grandmother was a professional fly fisherwoman). I caught my first fish in the brook – a six inch trout. After landing the desperate creature my grandmother said, “ now we must kill it so the fish does not suffer.” And she looked for a stone.

“Hit it over the head” she instructed handing me a rock she picked up nearby, and I did.  Tears welled up. It broke my child’s heart to murder such a shimmering rainbowed creature.

When we got home that day, my grandmother praised me lavishly for my catch, promptly gutted the fish and fried it in a pan for me to eat. I forgot the anguish I had experienced, basking in my grandmother’s approval. The fish tasted delicious, and to this day I eat fish and other seafood.

As a lobsterman’s wife I learned quickly how to cook crustaceans by sticking their heads in boiling water so they would die almost instantly.

No fish ever suffered after it was hauled into our boat. I killed each individual myself, enduring ridicule in the process.

My grandmother had taught me well.

Yet, becoming a fisherwoman never appealed to me.

Instead I became a Naturalist…

When the man on the train began talking I politely asked him what kinds of fish he caught. “All kinds” he replied with obvious enthusiasm. Inwardly I groaned, quickly changing the subject to the hooks on his hat.

Each one was unique, and all were beautiful and when I told him I had a childhood friend who tied flies he took off his hat and gave it to me to inspect. After admiring the exquisite craftsmanship of each lure the man surprised me with his next remark as he replaced the hat on his head.

He exclaimed, “I love to catch fish but I never eat them! I throw each one back. If you look carefully at the hooks you will notice that none of them have a barb.”

How had this observation escaped me? Sure enough, each hook was barbless, and I understood that this way the fish could be caught and returned to the sea unharmed. I was suddenly overjoyed to meet the man with the hat. With words of deep appreciation I happily shook his hand, exclaiming how wonderful it was to meet a dedicated fisherman who released his catch!

We went on to discuss the merits of conservation with regard to freshwater fishing. Suddenly the man removed his hat again.

“I want you to have one of these hooks,” he said quietly handing the hat to me. “We are kindred spirits.”

I chose one small perfect fly and carefully wrapped it up in a paper napkin before putting it in my purse. Thanking him.

When I got home that night I already knew where the tiny hook would find home. I have a beautiful Norfolk pine and hanging from one branch is a tiny flask that Iren once gave me that I periodically re-fill with our river water. The diminutive bottle is tied to one end of the string and I carefully attached the barbless hook to the other end.

Every time I walk by that tree I give thanks for the water that flows from Red Willow River and I remember the man with the hat who loved his fish!

But there is more to this story. On my birthday this year Iren and I met someone who had a fish he had recently caught that was still gasping for breath in a plastic bag. I begged him to kill it, offering to do it myself. My offer was rejected and afterwards, Iren, who is a vegetarian, thanked me for trying to save the fish, acknowledging that the experience had been too upsetting for her.

Of course, I understood why.

Within two weeks of this painful incident I met the man with the hat and now when I pass by my tree I think of Iren, the man, and me. One of us eats fish; the other two do not. But all three of us abhor animal suffering. And that hook has become a symbol of hope. Perhaps there are more us out there than I thought!

 

 

 

Sara is a naturalist, ethologist ( a person who studies animals in their natural habitats) (former) Jungian Pattern Analyst, and a writer. She publishes her work regularly in a number of different venues and is presently living in Northern New Mexico.



Categories: abuse, animals, Eco-systems, Ecojustice, Feminism, Feminism and Religion, General, Nature

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10 replies

  1. This was one good, read, thanks so much, Sara Wright

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  2. Lovely and evocative.

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  3. <3 <3 <3

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  4. Love this post, Sarah. It is inspiring and hope-giving to meet a kindred spirit. Was the lobster boat in Maine? My brother, who lives in Maine, tells me that because of all the changes in Maine waters due to over fishing lobsters are now fed by humans to keep the fishing industry going. Thanks again for this post.

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    • Elizabeth, yes, I was married to a lobster fisherman and lived on an island off the coast of Maine – and the sad story is that your brother is correct – over fishing is killing not just the lobster industry but all fish are at risk… and then we have water pollution, and climate change. At the rate we are going my guess is that lobstering might last one more generation.

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  5. Good story, especially following yesterday’s post about how men would do better to act with empathy and kindness. Hooray for your guy for not putting barbs on his hooks and throwing the fish back.

    I caught a fish once. I think I was about 12 years old. We were on a family vacation in Michigan, and my whole family went fishing in a Michigan creek led by my mother’s cousin, an outdoorsman who worked in a Chevrolet factory and was also a ballet dancer. The fish I caught was a rainbow trout. My mother’s cousin killed and cooked it and I ate it for supper that night. That’s the whole memory. I’m not a fan of fishing or hunting.

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  6. Yes, this story is uplifting and god knows we need hope to come from somewhere. Thanks for enjoying it… I liked your fish story too – as for hunting and fishing – if they have to do it ok – but it’s the suffering I cannot tolerate.

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  7. Your beautiful story brought tears to my eyes. THank you for sharing your kind, compassionate heart with us.

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