She speaks a various language.
Bound in the bardo bereft
vaguely present, almost dead.
For fucking shining aloud
back in. Come again, sweet terror
Carve my shadow on your cave walls
Render me a soul, source me
mystify, crush, obscure me
in that deep gorge
confine, stretch, reveal me
Let me wobble
Details shift. In my Earth days
I admired your clouds, your starry nights,
dew on a green field. Once
I saw a four-legged future
bucking goat girl—
lost bride tramping
veiled in dandelion fur.
I am she who prays you,
breaks your water—
a brook sluicing blood song
scoring your legs, O Organ Mistress
grant one more red escape.
Birth me again!
Let me abandon all hope and
kiss the mouth of the new world, suckle its air
emerge dark-eyed in a slick white coat, braying—
a knobby-kneed girl with a pink tongue
water beading in my beard.
Title: From a Mary Oliver poem, A Meeting, 1984
Epigram: From a William Cullen Bryant poem, Thanatopsis
Isabella Ides is a poet, playwright, and novelist. Most recently her trilogy, White Monkey Chronicles, was awarded the 2019 Jemma Prize for Speculative fiction and has garnered critical praise for its multi-culturalism and feminist depiction of radical spiritual hospitality. Isabella is looking forward to the premier of her newest play, Jo & Louisa in July of 2019. Winner of several theatre accolades, including a Critic’s Forum Award for Coco & Gigi, and Echo Theater’s National Big Shout Out for The Early Education of Conrad Eppler, Isabella is also the author of a collection of poetry, Getting Dangerously Close to Myself, the creator of the acclaimed Magdalene Mass. www.WhiteMonkeyChronicles.com